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MEWS UPDATE: JUNE 15 2006 Hi Everyone, and a very warm welcome to the hordes of you who have just whooshed through the cat flap barely after the ink was dry on the latest Mewsletter which was sent out on Sunday. First of all, can I just say how moved and humbled I am at the outpouring of compassion and sympathy you’ve shown me in the loss of my beloved Garfield. To date, I have received almost 400 emails and it totally blows me away that you would all take the time and trouble to write to me expressing your sympathy and love. For some of you, it has brought to the fore memories of your own recent losses, and that can be difficult to deal with, but you’ve shown incredible kindness to me – that I never in a trillion zillion years would have expected. <does a one-woman Mexican wave to show gratitude> Some one wrote to me and said that being a subscriber to the Daily Mews Mewsletter was like being a part of a big happy family and that the news about Garfield had shocked her to the core. Many of you have said similar things – and that is a very nice thing to feel – that we’re all part of a happy family. And as with most families, when there is a problem, the others gather round and help to sort it out – which is exactly what many of you have been doing in your emails since I sent out the Mewsletter on Sunday. Well, I have a glimmer of good news - <hooray! I hear you cry> When I went to the hospital on Tuesday, my blood had stabilised which means I am NOT going into hospital on Monday – they’re going to ‘wait and see’. It doesn’t mean that I’m better (would that it did!), nor does it mean that I won’t have chemo – but it does mean that the initial urgency of my condition has gone down a notch and I’ve been given another week at home. I need to go back next Wednesday for more blood tests and if the blood count is still stable, then I will have another week at home. Part of me thinks this is good – after all, who wants to rush into hospital for chemo?? But another part of me wants to get started so that it will be finished and done with much sooner. However, because of Garfield’s passing and the preparations that I have to organise, I am grateful for an extra week at home, to get things done without the manic rush that began last Thursday after the awful news on Wednesday. So I have got a bit of time to breathe – and that feels good. Now, I’m going to thank all the Prayer Warriors for their prayers because I believe that your prayers are responsible for my blood stabilising. Come on; let’s think about it! And if it can be stabilised in just a few days – surely we can expect MORE than that!!!! Wouldn’t it be great if I didn’t have to go into hospital at all and didn’t have to have chemo because I’ve been healed!? What a fantastic testimony that would be – so keep on praying you lovely Prayer Warriors – I’m so grateful for your prayers. I would value your prayers for tomorrow – Friday – as Garfield makes his final journey to the Pet Crematorium – with me, of course – and I will bring his ashes home. Tomorrow will be a very difficult day for me – even though I know what to expect as I’ve been through it 4 times before – it’s still not an easy thing to do – but it has to be done. So please pray for me and for Garfie – he’ll have BananaMan and Moo with him as he did when he went to sleep each night to keep him company. One final thing, on Tuesday I have to have an endoscopy (where they put a camera down your throat to look into your stomach) I would value your prayers again for that please. Thank you again, for all your emails; all your cards through the post, and gifts. I’m totally overwhelmed at your kindness. As I don’t now know when I’m going into hospital, if you would like to write to me at my home address, please email me and I’ll give it to you. If you would prefer to wait until I eventually go into hospital, that’s ok and as soon as I know, I’ll send out an update with the hospital details. Timmy as you can probably imagine is beside himself with loneliness and keeps hiding. Now he’s no longer a carer with specific caring duties to attend to, he’s feeling at a loose end. He’s asked me for cuddles today, which I’m so glad I’m around to give him. All the cats went off their food, but how much of that was due to the intense heat we had here, or the fact that they are grieving for Garfield is hard to say. And being at home for another week gives me the opportunity to keep an eye on them, particularly Timmy, to see that they’re recovering from their grief. Generally, the house is very quiet and a solemn spirit pervades. The poem ‘Stop all the Clocks’ by W H Auden sums up my thoughts about Garfield – if you remember, it was the poem immortalised in 4 Weddings and Funeral. Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone. Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone. Silence the pianos and with muffled drum Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come. Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead, Put the crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves, Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.He was my North, my South, my East and West, My working week and my Sunday rest, My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song; I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong. The stars are not wanted now; put out every one; Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun; Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood; For nothing now can ever come to any good.Bless you all for you and thank you again. I’ll write again when I have more news. Love from Pauline Timmy
Billy
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